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Facing Illness on My Own Terms: Sovereignty, Healing, and Truth



I usually don’t talk about something until I’ve lived it fully and feel I have the “proof of concept.” That’s just how I roll. For example, I never positioned myself as a parenting expert, even though I’ve raised four kids — three teenagers and a 23-year-old — and practised conscious parenting all the way through.

Why? Because I wanted to wait and see how they turned out before claiming I had something worth sharing. I didn’t want to give advice and then watch everything fall apart. But now, as they’ve grown, I see the fruits of that conscious work, and I feel more confident speaking about it.

I tend to feel the same way about everything I share. If I’ve lived it, I can speak it. And that brings me to something I’ve held back from talking about in depth: my health.

I have what appears to be breast cancer.

I’ve known for about a year now, but I didn’t feel like I had the right to talk about it until I could say: I healed it. I overcame it. I’m on the other side.

But what if I don’t? What if things get worse, or I die? Then what authority would I have to speak about it?

That’s the mindset that kept me quiet. But I realised it’s not helping anyone — not me, not you. Because my situation isn’t unique. Many people are facing the same struggles: sickness, financial stress, the pull of mainstream medicine, and the deep desire to live.

Why I Refuse the Mainstream Route

I’m not a mainstream girl. I don’t buy into the medical industry, pharmaceutical companies, or the food system as they are. There are already many people dedicating their lives to exposing how these industries profit off our suffering.

I’ve supported cancer patients before in my work as an energy healer, mostly helping them manage fear and balance energetically. But I’ve seen too many people hand over their power — going along with mainstream treatments they don’t believe in, instead of listening to their bodies.

When I was advised to get a mammogram and biopsy, my intuition screamed no. Why would I pierce something my body has intelligently contained? Why radiate tissue that’s already vulnerable? To me, it made no sense.

I’m not here to give medical advice. I can only share what feels right for me: trusting my body, creating an internal environment where healing is possible, and refusing to mutilate or poison myself in the name of “treatment.”

Money, Illness, and Sovereignty

One of the hardest parts? Within months of finding out, my income dropped by half — maybe even two-thirds. Suddenly, I didn’t have money for fancy treatments, supplements, or integrative doctors.

And this is the heartbreaking reality: it costs money to be sick. It costs money to try to get well. Meanwhile, the free routes offered are almost always mainstream. If you can’t afford alternatives, you’re at the mercy of a system that doesn’t care about you, only your profit potential.

But I refuse to give my power away like that. My health is my responsibility, my sovereignty.

What I’m Doing to Heal

I’ve studied health and nutrition for decades — fasting, cleansing, ketogenic diets, nutritional therapy. For the past year, I’ve committed to strict changes.

Most significantly, I’ve been on a carnivore diet for seven months. It’s controversial, but my body responds well:

  • My energy has increased.

  • I’ve lost weight and reduced inflammation.

  • My hormones feel more balanced.

  • My long-standing anaemia has improved without supplements.

It’s a way of eating that’s simple, nourishing, and affordable — especially compared to endless juicing or expensive supplements. It’s also aligned with my belief that food should heal, not harm.

Beyond diet, I walk daily, spend time in nature, and prioritise presence with my children. These aren’t luxuries; they’re medicine.

Facing Illness Without Fear

Being told you might die sooner rather than later forces you to face yourself. Fear, grief, anger, failure, surrender — it all comes up. I’ve chosen to meet it honestly.

Not with denial. Not with blind optimism. But with sovereignty: the willingness to look at every possibility and refuse to let fear or money dictate my choices.

Fix You For Free

Out of this experience, I’ve started a new YouTube series called Fix You For Free.

It’s about giving people tools, inspiration, and information to explore their own healing journeys — without needing endless money.

Because we all deserve health. We all deserve sovereignty. And we all deserve the chance to live empowered, not enslaved to fear or the limitations that can come from lack of money.

I’m not sharing this story because I’ve “arrived” at the other side. I may never get there. But that doesn’t make my journey worthless.

Even if I die, I will not hand over my power to fear, to institutions, or to anyone who thinks there’s only one way to live or heal.

We all deserve the right to choose, to live fully, and to honour our bodies with love and presence.

And that’s what I’m doing — one day at a time.

You can watch my Fix You For Free series on YouTube here.

You can listen to this story in more detail in this episode of The Sovereign Soul Podcast here. 

Love 

Rose

If you want to contact me, you can email me: selfmasterylove@gmail.com

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